It may look like a BEAN to you, but to us, it's a BABY!

The word is out...we are PREGNANT!

I have been skipping out on my blogging for a while because all I wanted to scream about was this, but Grant and I decided to keep this on the down low for a while.

I think the whole pregnancy is a testimony to the Lord. Grant and my bible verse as a family for the past year plus has been Proverbs 16: 9: "In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps". We knew the Lord's timing would be perfect! In the past Grant and I had talked about getting pregnant in 2009 and having a baby in 2010...and we found on on New Year's Eve Eve that we were pregnant! I think that the timing is humorous and from the Lord!

We got an ultrasound from the doctor today and heard the baby's heartbeat at 173! And, the due date looked right on track with September 8th. I am at a little over 9 weeks (see tracker on the right). In the picture above, the babies head is on the right.

So, as we go through this journey, keep us in your prayers and we will keep you updated through the blog. Notice the more "baby friendly" look :)

Rejoice in the Lord Always

You can say it's been almost a month....

"Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding will guard your heart and minds in Christ Jesus". Philippians 4:4-7

REJOICE IN THE LORD ALWAYS... Even when:

-your clunker breaks down

-then your "nice car" breaks down as you are borrowing a truck from your pastor and then you and your husband both have to share that BORROWED car

-you have to buy a new car but don't REALLY have the money...at least for that

-your husband and you car pool to work but your office hours are COMPLETELY different

It's REALLY hard to "rejoice always" and "Let your gentleness be evident to all" and much less to "not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God"...

So, the reason for this post is that my newly purchased "used" car just broke down on me this morning. My first thought was "Oh no! Not again! You are suppose to be the RELIABLE one!" and then I pretty much freaked out. Well, after that was done, I prayed and gave it over to the Lord.

But, if we are all honest with ourselves, how hard is it to rejoice in the Lord when things like that are going on and they just keep coming. "When it rains, it pours". But, if we stop and think about how faithful the Lord has been it helps put things in perspective.

For example:

-Grant's clunker truck blows up and is no longer drive-able...thank GOD we have a pastor with an extra car that didn't mind loaning it to us

-When my Suburu, our "faithful" car, broke down-thank GOD that we had our pastor's truck! We would have been stuck with nothing! And, in the middle of that situation we had amazing Morella and Nixon family who gave us "loaners" to help us get by.

-When we were car shopping for a new car (this might be a long bullet point) we found this GREAT (or so we thought) Dodge Durango 1999. We were sold on it but that night I prayed "Lord, if this isn't the car for us, please make it BLATANTLY CLEAR if we shouldn't be buying this". And, the next morning, my parents made us an offer to purchase my Grandfather's car. It was 20,000 miles less, a 2005 and we wouldn't have to go through the bank for a loan. We believed that was PRETTY clear!

-And, as far as my new 2005 car that we purchased from my parents-everything is turning out great! It turned out to just be a loose bolt that we could get fixed today and all is good. I am sure more will come from this and when it does I will still sing praises to our God! Even if nothing good comes from this 2005 car purchase then we will still remain faithful and praise God!

I have always told Grant that one day I am going to write a book and the title will be something to the effect (affect? don't know which one...teachers, help!) of "The Lord is ALWAYS Faithful"...it will have to be something more catchy than that, but you get my idea. Or we could call it "Crappy stuff happens, but God is still in control". I don't know if that title would sell well :)

Christmas Time

Christmas time really is the most wonderful time of the year! Family, Friends, Gifts and the birth of Jesus Christ!

I heard someone say this and it made me happy: "We give gifts because God gave us the greatest gift...Christ, his son!" I know that is very juvenile, but it's true. I LOVE giving gifts! I believe so far I have participated in 5 gift exchanges and I love every minute of them! We had a white elephant gift exchange at both the Arlington and Bartlett campuses of Christ Church and had the most random gifts given! A box of two separate flip flops and some shoe laces ...batteries...a ham loaf or some kind of meat...ha! They were fun!

For our Thursday Night Bible Study, we did a tacky sweater party and ornament exchange. Hilarious!!!

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I also visited with my friends from college at Mississippi College. We had our traditional Margarita's Mexican Restaurant lunch and then headed over to our friend Kristin's for our gift exchange!

And, last but not least, the most recent event for celebrating the Christmas season was last night! We took the Bartlett high school girls to see the "Zoo Lights" at the Memphis Zoo! Fun company! Cold, cooooold weather!

That's a whole lot of events and fun happenings summed up in a very short blog. More to come after the holidays!

Here is the written word on the birth of Christ (from the Message translation). Merry Christmas!!!!

The Birth of Jesus

Matthew 1:18 until end of Chapter 2

^18-19The birth of Jesus took place like this. His mother, Mary, was engaged to be married to Joseph. Before they came to the marriage bed, Joseph discovered she was pregnant. (It was by the Holy Spirit, but he didn't know that.) Joseph, chagrined but noble, determined to take care of things quietly so Mary would not be disgraced.

^20-23While he was trying to figure a way out, he had a dream. God's angel spoke in the dream: "Joseph, son of David, don't hesitate to get married. Mary's pregnancy is Spirit-conceived. God's Holy Spirit has made her pregnant. She will bring a son to birth, and when she does, you, Joseph, will name him Jesus—'God saves'—because he will save his people from their sins." This would bring the prophet's embryonic sermon to full term:

Watch for this—a virgin will get pregnant and bear a son;

They will name him Immanuel (Hebrew for "God is with us").

^24-25Then Joseph woke up. He did exactly what God's angel commanded in the dream: He married Mary. But he did not consummate the marriage until she had the baby. He named the baby Jesus.

Matthew 2

Scholars from the East

^1-2 After Jesus was born in Bethlehem village, Judah territory— this was during Herod's kingship—a band of scholars arrived in Jerusalem from the East. They asked around, "Where can we find and pay homage to the newborn King of the Jews? We observed a star in the eastern sky that signaled his birth. We're on pilgrimage to worship him."

^3-4When word of their inquiry got to Herod, he was terrified—and not Herod alone, but most of Jerusalem as well. Herod lost no time. He gathered all the high priests and religion scholars in the city together and asked, "Where is the Messiah supposed to be born?"

^5-6They told him, "Bethlehem, Judah territory. The prophet Micah wrote it plainly:

It's you, Bethlehem, in Judah's land,

no longer bringing up the rear.

From you will come the leader

who will shepherd-rule my people, my Israel."

^7-8Herod then arranged a secret meeting with the scholars from the East. Pretending to be as devout as they were, he got them to tell him exactly when the birth-announcement star appeared. Then he told them the prophecy about Bethlehem, and said, "Go find this child. Leave no stone unturned. As soon as you find him, send word and I'll join you at once in your worship."

^9-10Instructed by the king, they set off. Then the star appeared again, the same star they had seen in the eastern skies. It led them on until it hovered over the place of the child. They could hardly contain themselves: They were in the right place! They had arrived at the right time!

¹¹They entered the house and saw the child in the arms of Mary, his mother. Overcome, they kneeled and worshiped him. Then they opened their luggage and presented gifts: gold, frankincense, myrrh.

¹²In a dream, they were warned not to report back to Herod. So they worked out another route, left the territory without being seen, and returned to their own country.

¹³After the scholars were gone, God's angel showed up again in Joseph's dream and commanded, "Get up. Take the child and his mother and flee to Egypt. Stay until further notice. Herod is on the hunt for this child, and wants to kill him."

^14-15Joseph obeyed. He got up, took the child and his mother under cover of darkness. They were out of town and well on their way by daylight. They lived in Egypt until Herod's death. This Egyptian exile fulfilled what Hosea had preached: "I called my son out of Egypt."

^16-18Herod, when he realized that the scholars had tricked him, flew into a rage. He commanded the murder of every little boy two years old and under who lived in Bethlehem and its surrounding hills. (He determined that age from information he'd gotten from the scholars.) That's when Jeremiah's sermon was fulfilled:

A sound was heard in Ramah,

weeping and much lament.

Rachel weeping for her children,

Rachel refusing all solace,

Her children gone,

dead and buried.

^19-20Later, when Herod died, God's angel appeared in a dream to Joseph in Egypt: "Up, take the child and his mother and return to Israel. All those out to murder the child are dead."

^21-23Joseph obeyed. He got up, took the child and his mother, and reentered Israel. When he heard, though, that Archelaus had succeeded his father, Herod, as king in Judea, he was afraid to go there. But then Joseph was directed in a dream to go to the hills of Galilee. On arrival, he settled in the village of Nazareth. This move was a fulfillment of the prophetic words, "He shall be called a Nazarene."

Reading it Differently

Grant lead a discussion on the Beatitudes a while back but I like to read over this every once in a while. . Really eye opening. We concluded by Grant reading the beatitudes to us in a way that helped put the verses into focus for me.

The Beatitudes

Matthew 5: 2-11

And he opened his mouth and taught them, saying:

Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.

Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied.

Blessed are the merciful, for they shall receive mercy.

Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.

Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God.

Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness' sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are you when others revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account. Rejoice and be glad for your reward is great in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

Reading it Differently:

Truly content are the people who realize they are nothing without God because they will be saved.
Truly happy are the people who agonize over their sin because God will restore them.
Content are the gentle ones who recognize Gods holiness for they are inheriting God's kingdom.
Happy are those who desire nothing else than to be like God because only they will truly be satisfied in this world.
Truly happy are those who see the weakness of others and act because God will act to meet their needs too.
Content are those undivided in their hearts and minds, who seek God's righteousness before all else for they will experience God constantly.
Truly happy are those in harmony with God's desire for righteousness in the world for they are in God's family.
Truly content and very, very happy for those beaten up, abused, slandered, gossiped about, and mistreated for me because all I have is theirs and they aren't alone.

It's Not About Me.

Wake up call!

I don't think I have ever heard the Lord trying to tell me something as much as he has been this week. I mean that in all seriousness.

Most of you know that I have this newfound hobby of reading that I love. I know, I know, I am 25 and should have been reading for like 20 years already, but I recently have started to really have a passion for it. My problem is that I start SEVERAL books at one time and I get confused.

I KNOW that I am searching for the Lord to reveal himself to me more in my life...or for me to just notice him more. I think it's mostly the last part. Because of that I have been trying to learn more and reading is a great option for me. So, I will be referencing several different books here. One is "Forgotten God" that I talked a little bit about in a past post by Francis Chan, one is my "study" book I am doing called "The Living Room Series: No Other Gods" by Kelly Minter (I started this a LONG time ago and didn't follow through with it) and lastly is the book that our Thursday night bible study group is going over called "Seeing and Savoring Jesus Christ" by John Piper.

So, Francis Chan in Forgotten God opens the book by giving us the definition of "EXEgesis" and "EISEgesis" (emphasis mine here throughout all of this. It helps me to distinguish the two if I capitalize the first parts...what can I say? It's how my brain works.)

EXEgisis= an attempt to discover the meaning of the text objectively, starting with the text and moving out from there

EISEgesis= to import a subjective, preconceived meaning into the text.

Dumbed down the words mean this (dumbed down is how I like it-these are Francis Chan's definitions...I wish I could claim them as my own, ha...): EXEgisis is when you start with the text and draw out its meaning. EISEgesis is when you start with an idea or conviction, then search for verses in the Bible to prove your point.

I am going to do a lot of "quoting" from the books and I don't mean to copyright anything...just putting that out there in case someone tries to sue me. Kind of joking and kind of not. Don't sue me :)

Francis Chan says: "The bottom line is that we can easily pursue just about any lifestyle we desire, then find Scriptures to show everyone it's all right to live that way. But what would it look like to live EXEgetically? If we were to start with Scripture and allow it to dictate our actions, how would we live?"

In my opinion, the Bible should be read from an EXEgisis standpoint. Grant and I were talking the other night about how you can pretty much take anything out of context to make yourself feel good or feel like your way of thinking is right. Especially the Bible. I don't know if I was TAUGHT this way or if I just learned this on my own, but forEVER up until now, I would go through something in my life and look in the back of the Bible and read all of the verses that applied to that "topic" but I don't think that's how the Bible should be read. I am NOT saying that you shouldn't search the Bible in your time of need. I am just saying to remember that the verses are in context. It's like looking at a owner's manual for a car and expecting it to tell you how to brush your teeth. That's not it's purpose. That Bible isn't about us. It's about Jesus Christ. Period. I will explain a little more to elaborate my point in

a bit.

There is more to Francis Chan's book and I highly recommend it. I think I am done referencing his book.

My whole point of writing this is not to convict anyone, it's to say that I am learning more and more that my life is not about me. Here I go explaining a little more.

So, like I said before, in our Thursday night bible study we are reading John Piper's book "Seeing and Savoring Jesus Christ" and Grant leads that Bible study and my eyes were opened a TON last night. Here's some of the things the book and our group discussed...I might go off my original topic but hang in there...I will reign it back in.

John Piper introduces the book talking about how people can see but not see ("Seeing they do not see"). Matthew 13:13 says: "That is why I use these parables, For they look, but they don't really see. They hear, but they don't really listen or understand". We talked in our group about how often we, even as Christians, "see but don't really see". Meaning-how often do I go about my day without seeing God and how he's working. ALL THE TIME! It's pitiful...I am talking straight to myself here. John Piper says: "When we see with our spiritual eyes, we see the truth and beauty and value of Jesus Christ for what they really are....But not everyone see truth and beauty and infinite value. Some see only myth. Some see foolishness. Some see offense. "Seeing they do not see. It is as though a child should look at a Michelangelo and prefer a comic strip."

This verse helps a little more to understand the whole "Seeing they do not see" concept in my mind: 2 Corinthians 4:4: "Satan, who is the god of this world, has blinded the minds of those who don't believe. They are unable to see the glorious light of the Good News".

So, in our bible study, we are learning what it means to "savor" Jesus Christ. Hence the title of the book. Grant put it this way and it helped my simple mind understand better. It's like one of those word things on the ACT test we took in high school but it works:

Joy is to happiness as savoring is to emotion. This goes back to a lesson Grant taught on joy and happiness. The difference between joy and happiness is that joy is what we should have all of the time that comes from the Lord and our peace in our salvation and happiness is based on your emotions at that particular time. I can still have joy in Christ even though my family member just passed away but I am not happy. Savoring Jesus is something that we should live out in life and not just be something fleeting like emotion.

Chapter 1 starts out with this caption and Grant filled in the rest: "The Ultimate Aim of Jesus Christ" is to reveal the glory of God to us. This is where it brought me back to my thinking of "this isn't all about me".

"The universe was made to show the glory of God, and we were made to see it and savor it. Nothing less will do." John Piper goes on to talk about how the universe points to the fact that we as humans are infinitely small in the grand scheme of things and how it is further declared by our universe. "The heavens declare the glory of God"...yes, I have sang that in songs and heard that said all the time, but if you think about it, LITERALLY- THE HEAVENS DECLARE THE GLORY OF GOD!!! Again, THE HEAVENS DECLARE THE GLORY OF GOD! Literally. I guess I should stop screaming it on paper and explain what John Piper is saying. He's saying-look at our universe and the earth in relation to that. Have you ever seen those posters in elementary school that line up all of the planets and you see that although we live on this earth and it is MASSIVE to us-we are one of the smallest in the universe. I like what J.P. (I am abbreviating John Piper here) says: "The reason for "wasting" so much space on a universe to house a speck of humanity is to make a point about our Maker, not us." NOT US.

Isaiah 40:26 says: "Look up into the heavens. Who created all the stars? He brings them out like an army, one after another, calling each by its name. Because of his great power and incomparable strength, not a single one is missing." Wow. Louie Giglio has a talk called "Indescribable" that also talks about the universe and this same topic. Here's a link to it if you want to watch it: http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=17849695

WELL, so, if it's not about me-what is it about... J.P. says: "The deepest longing of the human heart is to know and enjoy the glory of God. We were made for this." WE WERE MADE FOR THIS. Grant said last night that we have a function. A cell phone isn't used as a door stop. If it was, it wouldn't work very well and visa versa. We have a function. We are made to know and enjoy the glory of God!

Grant and our discussion group elaborated on what J.P. said about how our lives have gotten so disordered. One person used the example of when her and her husband get into a fight about petty things (I could even put mine and Grant's name in there...it happens to everyone) one of them will stop and ask the other "How is your relationship with God right now?" and even though it makes that person so angry in that second-it's true. Things start to fall apart when you are a Christian but are not walking with the Lord. I am a first hand witness to that. I am also the first one to say that being a Christian doesn't mean your life is perfect...hard times are GUARANTEED in this fallen world. Grant used the word "splintered" last night and that stuck with me. Our world gets splintered when things get disorderly...when God is not the focus...the Number 1 focus.

J.P.'s words: " The point is this: We were made to know and treasure the glory of God above all things; and when we trade that treasure for images, everything is disordered. No one goes to the Grand Canyon to increase self-esteem. Why do we go? Because there is greater healing for the soul in beholding splendor than there is in beholding self."

To sum this all up from J.P.'s book he says: "The Christian Gospel is about "the glory of Christ," not about me. And when it is-in some measure-about me, it is not about my being made much of by God, but about God mercifully enabling me to enjoy making much of him forever." It's still all about God even when you are used to exalt his name. Wow.

You didn't think you were getting a bible study, did you? Neither did I. This is just what's going on in my life and felt it should be shared. Not for my glory, but God's.

I had more to add but this is so super long and I am sorry. What the "more" I wanted to add it worthy of it, though so hang in there...

I wanted to share with you some options to "give back" this Christmas. I will just list them and go to make this short.

TOMS Shoes: http://www.tomsshoes.com/default.asp -With every pair you purchase, TOMS will give a pair of shoes to a child in need. One for One.

Grant found this one called "Harvest of Hope": Give a gift that changes lives. http://www.harvestofhope.org/ -All around the world, people are in need, but you can help! Give the gift of Hope. There is a catalog on here that you can look through and give gifts on behalf of others or just to help.

Thanks for hangin' in there through this long message :) OH, and I know I didn't talk about the study book "No Other Gods"...I will save that for another post.

50 Things I am Thankful For

It started out with 10 things I was thankful for, but then I kept going.

Here are a few pictures as well of people I am thankful for. If you aren't on here, it's not because I am not thankful of you :)

1. That chicken is only 3 weight watcher points

2. A husband who makes me laugh daily.

3. That our queen size bed holds two adults, a 45 pound

Puggle purse dog,and a human size

Great Dane without breaking.

4. Hulu.com for my shows I miss often & Reba reruns.

5. Friends with the same sense of humor as me.

6. Twilight books and movies.

7. A wonderful church!

8. Youth group students who are shorter than me…

at least for a little while

9. A husband who takes pictures with me without complaining.

10. Edamame & pickles. Not together. I could make a

whole list of foods I am thankful for but I am

trying to keep that limited.

11. Facebook to keep in touch with old friends. Sad, but true.

12. Margarita’s Mexican Restaurant in Clinton.

13. Camp Electric. What? What?

14. Annual “pretty friends” and Memphis girl Christmas parties.

15. Emails and hand written notes.

16. My recent travels: Gulf Shores, Knoxville, Los Angeles, Cincinnati,

Atlanta, Chicago…all within a matter of 3 months.

17. My Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, who has been

where I have been and

experienced the pain that I have experienced.

18. Karen Kingsbury books

19. Twilight. (it’s worth repeating)

20. Grant Thomas Nixon. The love of my life…one in the same

incase you are wondering.

21. My Dad, Mom, in-laws, sisters, and brothers,

cousins, grandparents…

basically FAMILY!

22. Thursday Night Bible Study at the Butler’s.

23. Olive Garden. When I am not on WW.

24. Reverb.

25. Ethan Allen for the friend I found there. That’s pretty much it.

26. An all girl Fantasy Football league.

27. Funny Friends.

28. Crazy people with mullets.

29. Design.

30. Target.

31. Orange Crush. You know what imma sayin’!

32. Calendars to keep me organized.

33. A husband who is a preacher. Keeps me on my toes.

34. My sister who loves animals as much as me, has a GREAT

sense of style, and married a minister, too.

Not planned. Well, by us...God knew.

35. A sister who will make me money one day and shares

some aspects of my personality. People say we look

alike. I take that as a compliment :)

36. My hairstylist. #1 in Tipton Co.!!!

37. My home. And, my home away from homes-

The Morella’s, Nixon’s,

& practically, The Butler’s.

38. Spin class.

39. Starbucks Caramel Apple Cider, sugar-free syrup, no whip.

Last food item. Promise.

40. Any opportunity to serve. Which can pretty much be daily if

I keep my eyes open.

41. Girls bible study taught by Jessica N.!

42. ANY Christmas song. NSYNC is top on that list.

Now, where is my CD?!

43. Sisters who fought like cats and dogs through high school

but who I can call friends now.

44. A Mom who has a servant’s heart. And, the fact that

she shares my love of shopping doesn’t hurt either.

45. A Dad who makes me call him when I get home every

time I leave his house.

Daddy’s girl for life!

46. Ok. One more: Chick-fil-A Cookies ‘N Cream

milkshake that I haven’t

had in MONTHS.

47. Christmas trees and candles. Not right next to each other.

48. 5K’s. It’s a love/hate relationship.

49. Animals. Except insects.

50. Salvation. It’s worth repeating.

On the Road Again

My last trip for a few weeks was my trip to Cincinnati, OH with my job, Camp Electric, for Youth Specialties National Youth Workers Convention! I love going to the conventions and telling people about camp! So fun! And, Kristina and I got to meet Shane & Shane. Their concert was great! And, their new CD is sooo good! Besides "Psalms" this is prob my favorite from them.

Kristina went with me on this trip and did a GREAT job and we had a little fun after booth hours, too! We ate at some GREAT places and even met up with Sabrina and her boyfriend, David on their way back from a concert!

I really like putting pictures on my blog because it makes it more entertaining to me, so there are a lot on this one :) So, Kristina and I went to a few of the "Big Rooms" at the convention and one that we went to had Donald Miller speaking. Grant and I went to hear him in LA for the same convention and in Cincinnati he did a different talk and it was great! Well, it was different enough that I still enjoyed it. His new book is below and its about "what he learned editing his own life". Here were a few notes I got from his talk.

• We sit down with God's story (The Word) so often and think "What's in it for me?"
• A character in a book who is perfect makes it a lot harder to write a good story. I thought this point was good and he also talked a little more about how to actually write a story or a movie. And, he explained that there is this point in every movie/story with a climax or an "Act 3". That's where the story goes good and the conflict is resolved. It's where you know everything is going to be ok. And, as Christians, our Act 3 doesn't happen until the Wedding Feast of the Lamb when we die. So, here in our lifetime we will ALWAYS have pain and struggles, but the reassurance that we have is that our Act 3 is coming! Jesus will save us in the end, but we have to make it through our time here in this world...we are smack dab in the middle of Act 2! The only way a character gets better is through PAIN. This is true in life too. In order for our "story" to be great in the end we have to endure some pain...a lot...
• A character has to sacrifice of themselves for the benefit of other people for the story to be meaningful (Jesus on the cross is a good example...)
• As Christians, success isn't what we should want in life, it should be to have a meaningful life. We should want more in life, but it matters WHAT we want.
• Learn the secret to being content.

I picked up this next book by Francis Chan called Forgotten God. I have about a million books to read, but I will eventually get to this one and let you know how it is. I am hoping to make it to hear Francis Chan when I make my next trip with Camp Electric to the next National Youth Workers Convention in Atlanta in a few weeks.

And, last, but not least-Carrie Underwood has a new CD out! I love pretty much every song, but "Undo It" is GREAT! Really upbeat! It has NOTHING to do with my life, but it's still fun!